Nickels & Pickels & Nipples

College and all of that jazz.

Back in November, I applied to the four UC’s of

• Santa Barbara
• Santa Cruz
• San Diego
• Los Angeles

During my Sophomore year, I switched from a school that I was doing really well at, to a different school where my friends went. Obviously not a smart move. While there, I only focused on my friends, not caring about my grades and I slipped behind. Towards the end of that year, I realized that I was an idiot. Fuck these friends, fuck me being stupid.

As soon as I could, I switched back to my other school, and started all over again. Since then, I could not be happier with my life. I have even better friends than I use to, and my grades could not be better.

But sadly, because of me fucking up half of my Freshman and all of my Sophomore year, even with all I have done, my GPA is only at a 3.2 and so on and so on about my education.

Throughout my high school life, I have fucked up. I know it and accept. So through the whole waiting processes for college applications, I have not been excited or scared, I have just been…indifferent.

And I guess it was for the best, because as of checking the internet a few hours ago, I was turned down from all four of the colleges.

While most of you would be incredibly upset or freaking out, I have let myself feel the same. I accept that this is what I have done for myself, but I do not accept it as the final offer. I still plan to go to college, I will just be starting at a community one. Once I have bettered my education, and of course my life, I will head off to a four year college. Maybe by then I will also know what I’d like to major in as well.

So here is for my solidly calm peace of mind, and to a better future. :)